In those misunderstood moments between the exhale and the next inhale, I find myself surrendering in a way that doesn't feel like any commonplace sense of the word. It's more a profound yielding, a willing exploratory descent into a mystery that yet remains unexplored. In the calm serenity of my yoga studio, surrounded by a breathy symphony of tranquil rhythms and the newest collections of essential oils, my mind dances within the endless ballet of curiosity and submission.
Where curiosity is the birthplace of surrender, the journey often starts with an adolescent flirtation with the unknown. As a non-binary tantric yoga instructor, I find my curiosity is my master. Born in the beautiful city of Granada, I was always intrigued by the passionate flamenco dances, the sultry Andalusian sunsets, and the mystical Alhambra. My heart was quivering with an undiscovered thirst, a curiosity that percolated within me, whispering of the exotic allure of tantric yoga. The allure was a siren song, its melody winding around me, pulling me closer. It was a song of something deeper calling me beneath the superficial surface of existence, much like the cry of an unseen bird in the forms of a twilight-infused forest.
Now, at 41, I have surrendered to this call. But surrendering isn't about giving up or losing oneself. For me, it manifests as accepting the rhythms of the universe with an undefended openness. It is about aligning with the cosmic energy, about yielding to the undulating waves of life, much like the soft surrender of a leaf allowing itself to be carried by a river's currents. This innate acceptance brings with it an uncanny power, an inner silence that is louder than the roaring sea or the tempests that often consume the human psyche. It allows me to dance with life, with its myriad of ebb and flows, the captivating highs and desperate lows, in a symphony of acceptance. Submission is the act of embracing curiosity's outcome, letting it gently cradle you in the infinite cosmic dance, teaching you the art of being one with the universe and within yourself.
My studio, my sanctuary, is the sacred space where curiosity and submission meld into a seamless dance, guiding my followers and me on this journey. We explore together, hand in hand, unraveling the mysteries of our beings under the soft glow of the overhead lights, suffused in the mellow scents from our newest collections of essential oils. Each drop of oils, each drawn breath, each held pose becomes a step in our dance, a dance of surrender, a dance of discovery. Like the flamenco on Granada's streets or the sunset behind Alhambra, there is passion, there is beauty. But most importantly, there is acceptance, the acceptance of surrender. We surrender to the call of our souls and, in this dance, discover the unyielding strength within our own vulnerability.